Through It All

Wish

2012-01-22T08:35:00.001-08:00

If I were to have my wish fulfilled,

I would wish that it wouldn't

Because then,

I can keep on wishing until it really comes true :)

Tin Kosong

2012-01-13T21:44:00.001-08:00

I can crap very well.

But I do not want to be good at crapping.

I don’t want to live a life speaking meaningless words.

I want to be changed.

May the words that flow out of my mouth be valuable and meaningful, full of knowledge and truth.

I’m still in the process of filling this empty tin.

Please bear with me..

God Reigns

2012-01-06T07:24:00.001-08:00

I LIVE TO SAY,

“GOD YOU REIGN.”

Messy Room

2011-12-08T20:07:00.001-08:00

Today I don’t feel like doing anything

But I HAVE to clean up my room.

My mom laughed when she saw the phrase

HOW ONE TIDIES HIS ROOM IS HOW ONE KEEPS HIS HOUSE IN FUTURE

She must be wondering how my future house will look like.

=.= Fine whatever. I can assure you that there are many other people in the world that live with an untidy room too.

If you think that my room is messy, wait till you see this:

TAADAAAH! And I am officially not the messiest person on earth.

I have to admit, however, that a tidy room is a better environment for studying. And I have misplaced and lost so many things because my stuff are all over the place, I couldn’t find them.

As much as I dread, I still have to tidy up my room.

In situations like this, you have to JUST DO IT or else it will never be done.

Bye world, I am off to clear my junks. Perhaps I will be able to find all those assignments I have lost that got me scolded by teacher.

2 More

2011-11-30T00:41:00.001-08:00

NINE DOWN,

TWO MORE TO GO.

and then I’ll be free..

Fear Not

2011-11-15T21:49:00.001-08:00

You must not fear them

for the Lord your God Himself fights for you.

Deut 3:22

8

2011-11-06T02:47:00.001-08:00

Eight more days

‘Cause now it’s official, can’t back out.

Judge Not

2011-10-28T02:48:00.001-07:00

It’s pathetic to be misjudged by someone. Not because you were misjudged but because that someone knows not that they misjudged you.

You can’t judge a person’s character by the surface for there is more than you think behind the scenes. I just hope that you’ll come to realization that your judgment is wrong. To you who is so full of yourself, open up your eyes. Look around and see that the world is not just about you. Perhaps find a mirror and reflect how much ego you have. Sometimes, it’s not perfection that matters. But then again, I have no right to judge or reprimand you for I do not know you well enough.

I wish nothing but the best for you

Pimple Cream.

2011-10-25T05:59:00.001-07:00

I like pimple cream. It makes me feel as if my pimples are hidden when I apply it.

I like the look on my face when I apply excess pimple cream.

Most of all, I like it when people ask

“What’s that on your face?”

because I can smile and say

“Oh, it’s just COLGATE.”

Self-Deception.

2011-10-23T03:10:00.001-07:00

Self deception is the act of making yourself believe something that you know is not true.

“How desperately difficult it is to be honest with oneself. It is much easier to be honest with other people.”

-Edward Frederic Benson.

Self-deception is the scariest lie of all.

Thinking too much.

2011-10-19T06:17:00.001-07:00

I THINK I THINK TOO MUCH.

Why think so much when SPM is all you have to worry? O.O

Birthday Wish.

2011-10-18T05:01:00.001-07:00

My wish came true after all.

Well, at least one of them did :)

Be Still.

2011-10-14T07:12:00.001-07:00

I had no life so I googled “christian songs for depression” and I found this. But I ‘m grateful I did.

Blank.

2011-10-14T06:46:00.001-07:00

I am trying not to sound emo. But I can’t help it.

I just typed out a long post of babbling and emo-ness. And deleted it.

I can write out all the things that are running through my head but what’s the point. This is the internet. Maybe I just need someone to hear me out and talk some sense into me. I am always trying to understand others but I can’t seem to understand myself.

No, I am not some depressed freak who is attempting suicide. Right now, I am just someone who think too much that I do not know what to think or feel.

URGH!

2011-10-07T01:14:00.001-07:00

I’M STUCK IN THIS TRAP

AND I CAN’T GET OUT OF IT

I WANT TO SCREAM

PUNCH THE WALLS

KICK SOME TRASH

VANISH INTO THIN AIR

OR MAYBE FAT AIR

WHATEVER LAAA.

One day at a time :)

2011-09-14T20:52:00.000-07:00

The future is so uncertain
but I'll take a deep breath
and live one day at a time :)

Talent?

2011-09-09T07:55:00.001-07:00

I can dance, but not gracefully.

I can sing, but not melodiously.

I can run, but not swiftly.

I can write, but not prolifically.

I can speak, but not eloquently.

I can do all things

Yet I was master of none.

I wonder what my talent is,

Till now, I can think of none.

A friend is…

2011-09-01T02:52:00.001-07:00

“…someone precious and special in our lives. We must appreciate our friends and truly love them. A friend in need is a friend indeed.” Vivien Hew

“…a jewel, a diamond, someone very special.” Lee Yan Ling

“…someone you can rely on during times of trouble.” Michelle Liu

“…a four clover leaf, hard to find, but lucky to have one.” Ee Yuen San

“…someone that will always be there for you no matter what happens.” Ng Jie Yi

“…someone who we can always count on. Rain or shine, true friends will be there no matter what.” Cheong Heizen

“…a menthol that lights up this dark and cruel world.” Lee Suke Mune

“someone awesome, just like me.” Azureen Soon

“…more than an acquaintance. They bring out the best in you and love you just the way you are. Friends are the pillars of my life, the rainbows of my sky and the sambal of my nasi lemak.” Michelle

“…someone who accepts you as what you are.” Adelina Binti Addlan

“…for keeps.” Niki Cheong

Dear Malaysians.

2011-08-28T04:59:00.001-07:00

After watching this video, I began to think very hard about something to apologise. This may be a small apology but it’s sincerely from me.

Dear friends,

I’m sorry I spoke Mandarin with others when you don’t understand.

Let Go and Let God

2011-07-30T07:30:00.001-07:00

“I’ll commit it to the Lord, no matter what the results are, I’ll just accept it.”

I repeated this over and over again. To my friends, my family and to myself. I’ll smile no matter what the outcome is. It’s okay if I didn’t get it, it’s not the end of the world. Perhaps He has something bigger and better for me..

But is it really true?

I’ll admit it now. Although I’ve said that I will commit this completely to Him, part of me wasn’t letting it go. I became too confident of myself, unconsciously building up my hope towards that dream. During the wait, I prayed and prayed. I told Him that I’ll surrender my future to Him. But did I meant it?

I did but I didn’t fully surrender. Deep inside, I was fantasizing of my own future. I tried to draw and colour my life without His help. I thought I knew it all. I thought this was it. This was meant for me.

Sadly, the results are out. I did not get it.

Speechless, I questioned Him. There were many whys. Don’t get me wrong, I was and truly happy for the others. I just somehow couldn’t accept it. Perhaps I had too high hopes. I did not blame Him. I did not curse Him. However, there seems to be dissatisfaction within me. Why? The question lingers and was reluctant to leave.

Now, I am slowly letting go. I believe that He has a purpose for everything. Though the pain is there, I think I’ve finally come to an end of this dream. He knows better than me.

This will be my life song. lol :D

I’ VE LET GO THE NEED TO KNOW WHY

FOR YOU KNOW BETTER THAN I.

2011-07-14T06:48:00.001-07:00

Though hope is frail,

it's hard to kill.

2011-07-08T20:58:00.001-07:00

TODAY I SHALL SLEEP LIKE A PIG!

Richer or Poorer?

2011-06-29T02:18:00.001-07:00

People with big houses, luxurious cars, big income and properties are definitely richer than the contrary.

What about animals?

Are the zebras in the zoo richer than the zebras in the wild? Are the clown fishes in a big aquarium richer than those in the pond?

It all depends on how you define it.

What’s the point of having a big sum of money yet feeling bitter? What’s the point of being poor yet envying others the whole time?

Happiness is in our hands. If you choose to be happy, you will. Happiness is not define by your wealth or health. It comes from your heart. You may be rich in wealth but poor in the spirit. You may be poor yet rich with friends and laughter.

There is no richer or poorer. If you would forget about the brands and price tags and take a good look around you, you’ll realise that there are many things that could not be bought by cash.

Perhaps you are blessed abundantly, you just did not know it.

God knows.

2011-06-06T01:57:00.001-07:00

God knows my flaws.

He knows my full name, your nickname and your neighbour’s dog name.

He knows how much muscles you have.

No matter how much you can hide or deceive, He knows your body mass and how much fats you have.

He knows who is going to be the next US President.

He knows which football team will be smiling with honor, kissing their gold medal in the next English Premier League.

He knows what your best friend is thinking.

He knows how many A’s are you going to get for your SPM.

He knows how will you look like when you grow up.

He knows when will you stop growing.

He knows whether your crush is crushing you back.

He knows whether you will get that scholarship.

He knows whether you shower this morning.

He knows how many litter of tears you wept throughout the years.

He knows your darkest secret.

He knows the number of wrinkles on your face after 40 years, for goodness sake.

He knows when and where will you die.

He knows about you more than yourself.

He knows your future.

So why worry? God knows.

BRATs Kota Bharu 2011

2011-06-02T06:51:00.001-07:00

You know that feeling after every camp.

Where you hope that the moment will last forever on the last day of camp. Where you just hope that you could rewind to the first day of camp and start over.

It’s been about 2 months but that feeling is still lingering. Camp-sick, I guess.

With Azureen Soon texting me updates about how wonderful BRATs Alor Setar is, the more camp-sick I feel.

Well, people are moving on but I STILL MISS BRATs KOTA BHARU 2011!

To say that it has changed my life would be dramatic. But so far, it has been one of the awesome-est, wonderful-est, stressful yet enjoyable camp ever. It has opened my eyes and changed my perspective towards the media. And being part of the press is not just about writing, it’s about the pictures and videos too.The people there, it’s like you can relate with them ‘cause they’re so like you. Spontaneous, fun, crazy and loud! That’s what I love about them.

However, people come and go. And life goes on. BRATs KOTA BHARU 2011 may be a history to many of us yet every single moment and the epic stuff we did will always be saved as priceless memories in my mind. Hope that we’ll meet again someday. I’ll see you when I see you. Cheers!

And welcome to the new family, Azureen. Being a BRAT is awesome, right?

Thanks for the memories

Distraction

2011-05-17T01:47:00.001-07:00

You were my MOTIVATION

but now

you are a DISTRACTION

2011-05-01T21:19:00.001-07:00

You May Say I'm A Dreamer
But I'm Not The Only One

He Never Sleeps

2011-04-14T07:16:00.001-07:00

I came across a very meaningful song in YouTube.

Do you feel that the Lord has forgotten your need?
Just remember that God is always working in ways you cannot see.

LOL

2011-04-12T06:38:00.001-07:00

Forgiving and loving

2011-04-04T22:04:00.001-07:00

To love those who hate you.

To forgive those who hurt you deeply.

Is impossible without His love and grace.

The words that cause you to bleed, bring them unto Him. He understands for He suffered so much more. Despite the rejection, betrayal and condemnation, He is able to love and forgive.

1 Peter 5:7 Casting all your anxieties on Him, because He cares for you.

Tahan

2011-03-31T05:36:00.001-07:00

It’s been 3 days since I deactivated my Facebook account.

I guess I’ll be blogging more often since I’m (trying) not to touch Facebook. Gah!

So, we shall see how long can Michelle Han tahan. Let’s just hope that my fingers will not be itchy enough to click Facebook. And to those who were questioning me where on earth did my account went, it’s still there. I did not block you. Jangan perasan lah.

It’s only 3 days and it feels like 3 weeks. URGH! Tahan tahan tahan.

Depression

2011-03-14T02:22:00.001-07:00

Depression is being tired, when you're never able to sleep
Depression is pity, when you hate other's sympathy
Depression is longing for more, when you never acknowlede what's already there
Depression is the feeling of self-hatred, when the arrogance is concurrently overwhelming
Depression is the repugnance of emotional discomfort, when a sanctuary for physical affliction exists
Depression is loathing at your own success, when the ones around you prosper
Depression is perfectionism, when you could care less about anything else
Depression is the rock that you choose to constantly trip over, when all you have to do is move around it...
Depression is the ultimate cost of denial, when the truth is too much to handle
-Author unknown
DON’T MAKE DEPRESSION YOUR BFF.
(sigh.)

Beautiful

2010-12-28T23:15:00.001-08:00

Hot body like Megan Fox I have not.

Cute face like Jessica Alba I have not.

Big eyes, sharp nose, perfect height, I have not.

But still, I am beautiful in the Eyes if God

for I am fearfully and wonderfully made.

He loves me for who I am although I am not perfect in the eyes on the world.

You are beautiful no matter what they say

Words can’t bring you down

You are beautiful in every single way

Words can’t bring you down

You are beautiful. He loves you too. Just the way you are

Zzz

2010-11-29T05:45:00.000-08:00

To many, hols is the perfect excuse to stay up late.
To me, hols is the perfect reason to sleep early.

I NEED REST!

Hello Malaysian.

2010-11-23T07:51:00.001-08:00

Korea was their life. Korean dramas. Korean artists. Korean music. Korean food.

US was their life. CSI: New York. Say yo to the dudes.

Japan was their life. Conan. Hana Yori Dango.

They told me,

“Hey someday I will be migrating to ______________”

Korea
Japan
US
UK
Australia
Singapore

And where are the Malaysians? Eating spaghetti at home. (hello Italy :P)

Run run run.

2010-11-23T07:24:00.001-08:00

I never saw it coming

I should have started running

A long long time ago

Aal Izz Well

2010-11-16T23:03:00.001-08:00

When you are feeling scared, frightened and fearful.

When you have anxiety and nervousness.

When your heart is pumping so fast and your mind turns blank and clueless.

When you do not know where to head or what to say.

Just place your hand on your heart, close you eyes and take a deep breathe.

“AAL IZZ WELL”

………..is all you need to say.

3 Idiots rock! You should watch it too! :D

All is well.

Dreams.

2010-11-11T01:15:00.001-08:00

Sweet dreams, nightmares, you had them all.

People said that it’s best if you sleep without dreaming. That means you are sleeping really peacefully and your mind is resting soundly.

I, however, love to dream. I rather dream than having a night of peaceful rest. I rather have nightmares than none. Weird but ya, that’s me. Like all of you, when I dream, I’ll be in another world. Another place where a new adventure begins. And everyday, it’s a new one. Sometimes the dream is awesome. Sometimes it’s just another meaningless dream. The best part is when you dream of something really nice. Something that you know very well, will not happen in real life.

After waking up from a sweet dream, you just wish to sleep back and continue dreaming. You tried and tried yet fail to return to that wonderful dream of yours.

Some things were only meant for dreaming. So when you found that magical land of yours, do not open your eyes. Dream on for you cannot guarantee that it will last. Dream till the very end.

You make me laugh, even in my dreams..

Falling star.

2010-11-09T00:17:00.001-08:00

Catch a falling star and put it in your pocket,
Never let it fade away.
Catch a falling star and put it in your pocket,
Save it for a rainy day.

But how do you catch a falling star?

Stars do not fall.

★★★★★★★

=.= SHOOTING STAR LAAAA!

Aloha

2010-11-03T23:15:00.001-07:00

Once upon a time I used to look like her.

Now with braces, pimples and eye bags,

I found out I ain’t so Lilo after all.

P.S. Suke, Moon, Elaine…. blahblahblah, I am not Dory! And San doesn’t even look like Martin. Laugh out loud :D

Self-Control

2010-11-02T01:59:00.001-07:00

Remember during kindergarten, they spilt us into different classes. Love, Joy, Peace, Patience, Kindness, Goodness.. blahblahblah. My first year was in Peace. Second year was Hope. The name didn’t really matter much to me though.

And there was this class named Self-Control. Not much of a glamorous name. Back then, I did not exactly understand the meaning of all these names. I roughly figured their meanings as time pass. However, Self-Control got me confused. Each class was a word by itself, Self-Control was different. It was joined by two words. Self-Control was a weird name to me. I could not define it. Self-Control? Control myself? For what? Doesn’t make sense to me.

Wikipedia define self-control as the ability to control one's emotions, behavior and desires in order to obtain some reward later, and is the capacity of efficient management to the future. In psychology it is sometimes called self-regulation. Exerting self-control through the executive functions in decision making is thought to deplete a resource in the ego.

Now, I long for Self-Control.

Self-control from eating chili padi, chocolates and sambal that will worsen the condition of my pimples.

Self-control from Facebook and TV that will distract me from my studies.

Self-control from talking too much in class that will only waste my time.

Self-control from daydreaming that will only bring me nowhere.

Self-control from staying up late that will cause insufficient rest.

Most of all, self-control from all the temptations that will stray me away from God.

Self-control. I rather define it as the ability to control myself. Such a simple definition yet it’s the hardest to build. If life comes with a remote control, wouldn’t that be easier? But then, we would wish for something called Hope. Hope for freedom. God did not package us with a remote control. That’s why he gave us self-control. Use it wisely.

I promise?

2010-10-27T03:38:00.001-07:00

She comes nearer and nearer. You stare at the paper. You say the prayer over and over again.

“Lord, please help me through. I know I did not study hard. I promise if you gimme another chance, I will definitely not procrastinate. Give me wisdom to answer this paper. I know I’ve broke my promises over and over again. Year after year. I assure you that this will be the last. I learnt my lesson. Please gimme an A!!! I promise…”

I promise I promise I promise. Pleaseeeeeeeee…

Too many chances. He gave me too many. Will He give me another? I’ve said this prayer for so many years. The promises made were forgotten. Another exam comes. Another prayer. Quite similar to the previous. Another promise. Each time convincing Him that I will turn over a new leaf. Each time unfulfilled.

So I told myself, this will be my last prayer. No more. Will I be able to keep it?

~~I feel like crap. What a useless jerk am I.~~

No matter what the outcomes are, I’ll just accept it.

I deserve what I deserve. No more empty promises.

I do not want to say the same prayer in the next exam.

And I do not want this post to be another unfulfilled promise.

Choices

2010-10-10T03:06:00.001-07:00

There are many choices in life.

Either you make the right one or you regret choosing the other.

Think twice before you say yes.

Or else, you’ll end up..

Just like me.

Forever and Always?

2010-01-31T07:06:00.000-08:00

Once upon a time, I believe it was a Tuesday when I caught your eye
And we caught onto something
I hold onto the night, you looked me in the eye and told me you loved me

Were you just kidding?
'cause it seems to me, this thing is breaking down
We almost never speak
I don't feel welcome anymore
Baby what happened, please tell me?

'cause one second it was perfect, now you're halfway out the door

And I stare at the phone, he still hasn't called
And then you feel so low you cant feel nothing at all
And you flashback to when he said forever and always
Oh, and it rains in your bedroom
Everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
Cause I was there when you said forever and always

Was I out of line?
Did I say something way too honest, made you run and hide
Like a scared little boy
I looked into your eyes
Thought I knew you for a minute, now I'm not so sure

So here's everything coming down to nothing
Here's to silence that cuts me to the core
Where is this going? Thought I knew for a minute, but I don't anymore

And I stare at the phone, he still hasn't called
And then you feel so low you cant feel nothing at all
And you flashback to when he said forever and always
Oh, and it rains in your bedroom
Everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
'cause I was there when you said forever and always
You didn't mean it baby, I don't think so

Back up, baby, back up
Did you forget everything
Back up, baby, back up
Did you forget everything

'cause it rains in your bedroom
Everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
'cause I was there when you said forever and always

Oh, I stare at the phone, he still hasn't called
And then you feel so low you cant feel nothing at all
And you flashback to when we said forever and always

And it rains in your bedroom
Everything is wrong
It rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
'cause I was there when you said forever and always
You didn't mean it baby, you said forever and always I don't think so yeah

So, what happened to forever and always? *blinks*

Dear sis. Dear BFF.

2010-01-03T01:52:00.000-08:00

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
And we would get so excited and we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

[1]
As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
From whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

[Repeat 1]

La, la, la, la:
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la:
We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

[Repeat 1 (3x)]

I will miss you guys. As our lives change, come whatever, we will still be friends forever. The distance may vary. The time spend together may vary but our friendship shall never die.

God bless you.

2009-12-28T07:31:00.000-08:00

Okay, just a quick post. Today is someone's birthday..
*drumrolls*............ DAVID ARCHULETA'S BIRTHDAY.

Yo David, you're officially 19. Congrats. I am so trilled!!!! Hahaaaaa, have faith in everything you do. There are ups and downs in life, most importantly, you must never give up.

" The best thing you can do to set yourself apart is just be yourself. If you're fake, you know people find out who you are later, it's like "Well that's not who we thought you were." Being yourself is where you feel most comfortable and people get, you know, they feel that connection the best. That's the best way to go. You always have to be yourself."

-David Archuleta

I heart you and hope that you'll be successful in life. May 2010 be a blessed and wonderful year. Hope that you'll come to Malaysia soon :) God bless you abundantly.

I'm your biggest fan xoxo.

Here I am, blogging.

2009-12-15T00:22:00.000-08:00

I did it. I finally did it. I typed blogger.com and logged in! Oh yeah, applause please! And I clicked NEW POST. I am blogging. I am blogging and I don't know a single word I wrote. Well, ignore my grammar, it sucks. SOME PEOPLE complaint that I haven't been updating my blog. So, I am saying hi to YOU. I am lacking of inspiration. If you have some, zap me please. Anyway I'm currently obsessed with quotes from movies and cartoons. Don'tcha think they're awesome?

"Hey, I'm not afraid any more! I said I'm not afraid any more! Do you hear me? I'm not afraid any more." -Kevin McMallister, Home Alone

"I am a Bear of Very Little Brain, and long words bother me." -Winne The Pooh.

"Death is peaceful - easy. Life is harder." -Isabella Swan, Twilight.

"Sometimes, it's the boring stuff I remember most." -Russell, Up.

Elizabeth James: Here's to... here's to you. May your life be far less complicated than mine.
Meredith Blake: Why thank you.

-The Parent Trap.

"We weren't supposed to have a winning season, but we do. We weren't supposed to advance to the playoffs, but we did. We're not supposed to be here, but we are." -Grant Taylor, Facing The Giants.

Jamie Bartlett: [typing] Connor, don't you hate me too?
Connor Kennedy: [typing] No, I hate what you've become.
Jamie Bartlett: [typing] Me too.

-Read It and Weep.

Eish eish gotta go. Will blog more. Well, hopefully.

YUCK!

2009-11-09T04:58:00.000-08:00

It's WORSE than Happy Tree Friends.

It's SCARIER than those trilling rides in theme parks.

It's much more HORRIFYING than the worst horror movie on earth.

It's the most FRIGHTFUL thing I've ever seen in my life.

It's the worst NIGHTMARE.

It's SICKENING. It's DISGUSTING.

It makes you wanna VOMIT.

Some scenes and pictures can never be erased. Some just stay with you and will remain as MEMORY. No matter how hard you tried, it can never be gone.

And I vowed to myself that I will NEVER be a surgeon when I grow up.

The End Full Stop.

You Are The Music In Me.

2009-10-28T06:07:00.000-07:00

I spent my whole day in the library. Well, almost the whole day.
We turned on the stereo out loud, so loud that seniors complaint xP

Well, we did stock-checking, so exhausted, you know, being in a room for a few hours is kinda torturing. When I was so fed up and tired, one song saved the day.

"Saw you from a distance, saw you from the stage, something about that look in your eye......."
(Touch My Hand)

Omigosh, it's David! Haha, we began to singalong then started getting up, then started dancing. Owh, it feels so cool. We danced and danced a lot. From Touch My Hand to Boom Boom Pow to I'm Yours to Love Story. Muahaha, dancing like mad. I even heard Zero Gravity today! Awww :) After clearing up everything, we sat down on the floor and played random games like Scissors-Papper-Stone.

Carmen suddenly thought of telling us a ghost story. All of us started to shut up and listen.. So she started her story.
"There was once a school..." Wait. Wait. Wait. I went and switch off the lights for better effect. Owh.. It's so creepy there. "Okay, continue your story." I sat back and listen. Everyone was holding everyone's hand tightly. "STOP!! I can't focus with that Mariah Carey song going on." The song Obsessed was playing, how are we suppose to listen to that story?

"Why you so obsess with me... blahblahblahblah..."

Once again, I stood up and off the radio. Now it's really creepy. No music. No lights. Just us and the fan rotating. We kept really quiet and listened attentively to every single word she said. Oh Carmen, can't you talk a bit faster? You just kept us waiting and waiting. Our hearts are beating like mad. So she said,
"There's this library, in a school.."
"Then? Then? Then?"
"The library has 2 doors.."
"Then? Then? Then?"
" There's this boy.."
"Omigosh, a boy? Is he hot?"
"Oh, shut up Michelle!"
"He opened the library door.."
"Then? Then? Then?"
"He tried to open the door.."
"Then? Then? Then?"
"He opened the door.. then, OH NO!"
"WHAT?!"
* Carmen looks at her watch*
"Sorry, it's 1.50pm. School's over, I got to go."
*Rushes out and left the library*

Sweatness!!! =.=

World Of Our Own

2009-10-26T23:06:00.000-07:00

We went to Genting yesterday.

I don't know what's wrong with my stomach, it's freaking me out. The whole time, it hurts. Having gastric, I guess. I ate a lot and a lot and a lot. Well, of course I had breakfast at home, then I ate some biscuits on the bus, then HoneyStars from Moon Moon, then McDonald.. and I still don't feel full. In fact, the pain is getting worse. By the way, it's only 9 o'clock in the morning. URGH! Later I took my lunch, it's buffet style. I took quite a lot but still, my stomach doesn't feel full. I felt like vomiting! Vivien warned me not to eat too much because we're going to the theme park but...... my stomach feels EMPTY! Ouch! Ouch! Ouch! It hurts a lot! When we reached the park, I really felt like vomitting, don't even feel like having any rides. They were so keen to go for Flying Coaster. I just tagged along loh, praying that I will not vomit. And guess what? After the ride, poof, my pain is gone. Hahahaha. Amazing huh? Lalala, but later my pain came back. I can't stand it anymore I ate a bar of chocolate and a whatcha call that.. herbal egg. STILL HUNGRY!!! What's wrong lah? After that, I ate KFC wedges. (Still not full)

The thing that really gets on my nerve is the go-kart ride. I queued up for like, 30 minutes. Waiting with anticipation, then that lady told me that my height doesn't satisfy the height required. WHAT?! For a moment I felt like crying, I thought I am taller than 153 cm! Nonono, I showed them I am taller than that. They stared at me and said, err no.. Fine, okay I walked away with Moon Moon, good thing I am not the only one. Thank God we have good friends like Xi Lin and Yuen San, they left the queue and joined us :)

So I realised that I have complaint and grumbled a lot. Haha. I want to thank God for giving us a safe journey to and fro. Thank God that I didn't vomit. And honestly, I enjoyed my time there :D We shouted like mad by the way. And owwww, the snow.. it's cold. Hahaha.. We had fun, didn't we? ;P

This is just a quick post. Sorry, I didn't write much about the trip. And sorry, I'm too lazy to post pics, go to facebook and view lah xD Thanks, people.. without you guys, this trip will not be as FUN! We're a great bunch, aren't we? (Xi Lin, Yuen San, Moon Moon, Vivien, Heng Huei, Kai Xin, Ju Ee, Min Yi, Xin Yi, Chee Yan, Wei-Yen, Elaine, Suke Mune, Hui Min, Dhuha, Kuljeet, Kah Mun, Oorai, Anis, Farah, Nurul Ain, Zaidah and the many many more..)

♥ ALL OF YOU :)

P.S. View Ju Ee's blog, she wrote every single detail (well almost) about the trip xP

Crazier

2009-10-17T23:21:00.000-07:00

I've never gone with the wind

Just let it flow

Let it take me where it wants to go

Til' you opened the door

And there's so much more

I'd never seen it before

I was tryin' to fly but I couldn't find wings

But you came along and changed everything

You lift my feet off the ground

You spin me around

You make me crazier crazier

Feels like I'm falling and I

I'm lost in your eyes

You make me Crazier Crazier Crazier

I watched from a distance as you

Made life your own

Every sky was your own kind of blue

And I wanted to know how that would feel

And you made it so real

You showed me something that I couldn't see

You opened my eyes and you made me believe

You lift my my feet off the ground

You spin me around

You make me crazier crazier

Feels like I'm falling and I

I'm lost in your eyes

You make me crazier crazier crazier

Ohhhh

Baby you showed me what livin' is for

I don't wanna hide anymore

Oh Ohh

You lift my feet off the ground

You take me away

You make me crazier crazier

Feels like I'm falling and I

I'm lost in your eyes

You make me crazier crazier crazier

Crazier Crazier

Can you feel the heat?

2009-10-15T00:12:00.000-07:00

Yo people! Hye.. Erm wait.. I wanted to say something. I remember that it's something important, I think it's urgent.. But what did I wanted to say? Think. Think. Think. *Frowns and strains eyes* ...

Oh ya! That's it! PMR is FINALLY over.. Hahaha.. It's a joke, got it? Did you get it? No, I didn't.
I'm going crazy already. I have this strange feeling that PMR isn't over. Everything is so surreal, like a dream. They told me PMR is over, I stared at them for some time and asked: "Really? You serious or what?" They say yes it's true, I blinked my eyes for a while and hugged them tightly.

Lol. So people.. PMR IS OVER! WAY OVER! Hey PMR, I've got over you! You think you can just dump us like that? You think that we'll cry as if you've broke our hearts? NO! Eventhough you dump us for younger age students like those Form 2s, we don't mind. Fine, dump us. SPM will fall for us.. Just you wait, you'll regret. What the crap :P

YAHOO! No more PMR means liberty. I can do whatever I wanna do. I can have whatever I wanna have. I can have the sun, the moon and the stars. (Not literally lah) We're going to infinity and beyond. There's this current in our hearts, deep down inside we're ready to breakfree. We wanna burst and scream like no one's hearing, we wanna dive into the deep blue ocean like there's plenty of dolphins swimming with us. We want to soar, it's more than flying.. We want to just float like it's zero gravity, we want to reach somewhere further than the sky, the moon perhaps. Can you feel it building like the waves the oceans just can't control?

Anyway, enough of the crappings. After that creepy chinese exam, Heng Huei and I headed shopping. Window-shopping, to be exact :P Went to Starbucks too.. Say cheese :D
See that thingy in the glass? It's a lizard.. lol.
My eyes are practically "bengkak"

Gosh, you guys should take a good look at my eyes. I am seriously lacking of sleep. They say we should have an average 7-8 hours sleep a day right? Hehe, I only sleep for 5-6 hours daily. Sleep sleep sleep, I have to get back my beauty sleep...

PMR is over! Jealous? :P

Yay! Yay! PMR is gone. Last but not least, I want to thank you guys for praying for me. And of course, I wouldn't have done my exams without God. I was freaking nervous at first, I even thought of not going to school on the exam day but then God gave me the peace that I've never felt before. Thanks a lot, You gave me the faith while I did my exam. I commit my results to You. I've tried my best and I know You'll do the rest :D I love You God, You're the best!

2009-10-05T20:54:00.000-07:00

"My peace I give unto you
It's a peace that the world cannot give
It's a peace that the world cannot understand
Peace to know
Peace to live
My peace I give unto you"

Another birthday..

2009-09-30T07:06:00.000-07:00

Hey people, just typing a really QUICK post!
I'm only allowed to use the computer for 10 minutes. How sad.
So ya, just wanna wish PEARLY CHUA a very happy 15th birthday!

Erm, all the best and God bless.
Sisters forever :)

Sorry, this is so short. No time!

P.S. Ali+Tuna= P+M (our equation :P)

She turns 15 tomorrow.

2009-09-27T06:15:00.001-07:00

Dear mygurlheizen,

Blessed advanced birthday. Better wish you first in case I couldn't online tomorrow :P
So ya, on behalf of Taylor, Junsu, Leehom, Leona, Jesse, Channing, Chase, Carrie, Westlife(Shane :P) and of course my husband David, I would like to wish ya Happy 15th Birthday. Hehe.. one year older, anything to say? Never mind, 15 still sounds young. Wakaka!

Thanks a lot for being such a great friend. You have wonderful ears, can't imagine how can you endure my crappings and ramblings everyday. Sorry for annoying you with Miley Cyrus songs *winks to Elena*. Muahaha. What else ah? Oh ya, wanna tell ya that your braces are cool, seriously. And you're cool too because you like, know almost every song. You're like a walking music dictionary. I'll just sing whatever song and you'll guess it. Cool man!

I hope that you'll be happy and joyous always. Stay the same, don't change yourself! Continue to write and compose more :) Don't hit me but I wish that you'll put on some weight. You're super skinny man, be chubby like me lah :P Just kidding anyway. All the best in PMR but I'm sure you'll get straight A's. May our friendship last forever. Love you lots and God bless you.

Yours sincerely, alwaysmichelle.

'Cause if you don't dream big, what's the use in dreaming?
If you don't have faith, there's nothing worth believing.
It takes one hope, to make the stars worth reaching for.
So reach out for something more!

-Dream big, David Cook

Live Life To The Fullest.

2009-09-21T08:20:00.000-07:00

Just so you know, this is my hundredth post.
Okayh this is so random :P
DANCE like no one is watching. SING like no one is listening. EAT like you'll never get FAT. LAUGH like there's no tomorrow. LOVE like you'll never get hurt and LIVE LIKE IT'S HEAVEN ON EARTH.

The Ten Commandments: The Musical

2009-09-19T05:20:00.000-07:00

I've watched this musical last night. It's a theater musical except the fact that I watched it on tv, well CD.
The story is about The Ten Commandments. Duh! Haha, same from the bible, just that they modified a bit. And my dad said it's not very scriptural. They never really follow according to the bible.
Anyhow, the music is amazing. The songs are great. The cast are altogether wonderful. Oh ya, and did I mention that Adam Lambert is one of them? Haha, I didn't know that he's acting at first. Guess who is he acting as? Joshua. Lol. But gosh, you have to admit, he has a great vocal. Througout the show, you just can't help adoring his singing.
Yup, that's Adam Lambert.

Besides him, there are some other great casts, one of them is Val Kilmer. My dad said he's the Batman guy. He can sing but not as good as Adam. He's acting as Moses. Overall, this show is fantabulous. A show worth watching. You guys should watch it :)

***
Can I fight for my own freedom
with only these two hands?

If You're listenin', let us know
God, if You're listenin', let us know

2009-09-11T05:38:00.000-07:00

The last time I freaked out, I just kept lookin' down
I st-st-stuttered when you asked me what I'm thinkin' 'bout
Felt like I couldn't breathe, you asked what's wrong with me
Xi Lin and Yuen San said, "Oh, she's just being Michelle."

Dream On.

2009-09-04T08:39:00.000-07:00

David said Hi to me!
David Archuleta said Hi to me!
David James Archuleta said Hi to me!

Yes he said Hi to me and I just froze when I heard it.
Suddenly my heartbeat stops. Everything just stop. It's like the earth stops orbiting, every creature stop moving. And I am, breathless.
*Silent*
AH!!!! He said Hi to me! Muahahaha.
It's just too good to be true.

Hahaha... I replayed this for like, more than 36 times. Nope, I won't get bored. Who will?
Aww David.... *Faints*

"Hi Michelle!"

These two words meant a lot to me. *Sobsob*

Well, continue to build your castle in the air. It's not a crime.
It satisfies you. Muahahahaha...
I'm positive that I won't be able to sleep tonight.

Dream on..

P.S. Please say those 2 words once more.

We are ONE.

2009-08-30T20:45:00.000-07:00

It's been 52 years celebrating independence, owh will you ever get bored?
NO! I WON'T!

To all my friends, I just wanna say that I love all of you.
Let not racism come between us.
Let not prejudice and selfishness be the wall and barrier of our friendship.
In all we do, let it be whole-heartedly, with love and care. One love undivided, that's what we are.
Let us tell each other that nothing can tear us apart. No enemies can divide and complicate us because we are, united as one.

We are one, aren't we?
Together we stand, divided we fall.

Let us be one voice, in love and harmony,
and we pray O God, grant us unity.

"As you go through life you'll see
There is so much that we
Don't understand

We will stand by your side
Filled with hope and filled with pride
We are more than we are
We are one

Tears of pain, tears of joy
One thing nothing can destroy
Is our pride, deep inside
We are one

We are one, you and I
We are like the earth and sky
One family under the sun

All the wisdom to lead
All the courage that you need
You will find when you see
We are one"

-The Lion King, We Are One

Colours don't bind, we are a family.
We are one. We are Malaysians.
:)

Holiday.

2009-08-27T08:05:00.000-07:00

One week holiday is a luxury for me. At least I don't have to wake up early for school.
I can sleep as sound as a pig..

KABOOM! It's so fast, it's Thursday!

I didn't do much during hols, didn't went anywhere either, except for tuition.
URGH! From 11.30am until 6.30pm..
So exhausted man! Haha, I can't stop doodling at my paper. Then, Xi Lin and Elena joined in. Lol.

That was yesterday. Today I laze the whole day. Practically doing nothing. All I did was eat. Use computer. Watch TV. Watch TV. Use computer. Eat. Watch TV. Sleep. Blahblahblah..
Haha, Heng Huei came to my house then I went to her house. We are so FREE, right?
Anyway, we went down and bought some stuff.. You know, junk food. Then, we watched "Night At The Museum 2". Haha, it was hilarious. All we did was lie on the sofa, with some cushions, nibble chips, nibble chips, nibble chips and drink drink drink.. Literally like pig. Haha..

Anyway, enjoy your hols. Signing off. See ya :)

Life is a maze.

2009-08-23T22:30:00.000-07:00

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go, can't do it alone
I've tried, and I don't know why

Slow it down, make it stop or else my heart is going to pop
'Cause its to much, yea it's a lot to be something I'm not
I'm a fool, out of love 'cause I just can't get enough

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go, can't do it alone
I've tried, and I don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out, it's bringing me down
I know, I've got to let it go

And just enjoy the show

The sun is hot in the sky just like a giant spot light
The people follow the signs and synchronize in time
It's a joke, nobody knows they've got a ticket to the show

Yeah

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go can't do it alone
I've tried, and I don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out, it's bringing me down
I know, I've got to let it go

And just enjoy the show
Just enjoy the show

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go, can't do it alone
I've tried, and I don't know why

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out, it's bringing me down
I know, I've got to let it go

And just enjoy the show
Just enjoy the show, just enjoy the show

I want my money back, I want my money back
I want my money back, just enjoy the show
I want my money back, I want my money back
I want my money back, just enjoy the show

-The Show, Lenka

It's Zero Gravity.

2009-08-21T22:05:00.000-07:00

No no no. I did not stalk him.
He came to my school. Can you believe it?
Well maybe you can, but I can't.
Yup that's him. The astronaut.
Dr Sheikh Muszaphar Shukor!
Dr Sheikh Muszaphar Shukor!
Dr Sheikh Muszaphar Shukor!
Dr Sheikh Muszaphar Shukor!
Dr Sheikh Muszaphar Shukor!
Dr Sheikh Muszaphar Shukor!

Omg he is so blazingly freaking HOT.
He is extremely CUTE.
And he is so breath-taking and super COOL.

HE IS LIKE, THE MALAYSIAN VERSION OF DAVID ARCHULETA!

AAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!
Hit me baby one more time.
Elena, Dhuha and me were waiting.. waiting with anticipation.
It took us some time and obstacles to be in that pic. And he isn't staring at the camera too.
Who cares? He's in it. And I'm in it. And we're like, so close..
Muahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha.
Goodbye :)

“Our sun is one of 100 billion stars in our galaxy. Our galaxy is one of billions of galaxies populating the universe. It would be the height of presumption to think that we are the only living things in that enormous immensity.”

-Werner von Braun

Sometimes I'll look up to the sky and stare hard.
Isn't God wonderful? He has made all things beautiful in its time.

I'll never forget this phrase.

"So if I can do it, you can too."
Dr Sheikh Muszaphar Shukor.

So, why did he came to our school for?
To motivate us.

I didn't feel motivated. I felt fascinated.

If only he was David Archuleta.....

***

You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name.
Who imagined the sun and gives source to its light,
Yet conceals it to bring us the coolness of night.

Isn't God amazing?

Happy Birthday Sanny!

2009-08-19T06:22:00.000-07:00

Hey hey you you Happy Happy Birthday!
So so sorry I didn't come to school today!
Hey hey all the best to you you!
Yo yo I love you very muchie!
Thanks thanks for everything you've done for me!
Oh ya, God bless you!
Yes yes, you're the one and only Sanny!
Woah woah... You're 15 this year.
Have have faith in everything you do.
And and don't ever let go of your dreams!!
Always always remember that even the world ends.. I am still here.
Don't don't frown!
Think think positively!
Remember remember to stay happy!
Hold hold on tight to this life and never let go!
Never never give up!
Best Best Friends Friends Forever!
Blessed Birthdayy! :D

"If you have made mistakes, there is always another chance for you. You may have a fresh start any moment you choose, for this thing we call 'failure' is not the falling down, but the staying down. "

~ Mary Pickford

I ♥ YOU FREAKING MUCH!

Happy Birthday Syiling!

2009-08-14T06:37:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY XI LIN!

Haha, I can't believe that you are my BFFF.
It's really a wonder we're so close now.
We've known each other for like, long time ago. Well, since primary school.
Suddenly, kaboom!! Both of us are best friends. Hahaha. I can barely believe it myself.
Both of us from different worlds and being strangers for 5 years.. can end up as best friends.
Isn't that amazing? Muahahahaha. So errr... I want to wish you all the best in everything you do.
Remember to have faith and confidence. Well, you will when you believe. And yeah, try to think positively.. you'll face many obstacles in life, learn to stay positive :D
Next thing is, all the best in your PMR examination.
I believe you'll pass the test with flying colours. 8A's!

Kinda tired now. My eyes are closing..

Last but not least, thanks for being a great friend.
GOD BLESS YOU VERY MUCH!

Wishing you a year filled with the same joy you bring to others.

I ♥ YOU FREAKING MUCH!

Battlefield

2009-08-08T08:37:00.000-07:00

Prayer request:

PMR Trial (7/8-17/8)

that I may concentrate when studying.
that I may be discipline.
that I will not waste my time.
that I will have self control. (NO FACEBOOK!)
that I will remember everything that I've read and revise.
that I will recover fully. no stupid running nose, cough and headache.

God be with all of you too.

Don't go wasting your emotion,
Lay all your love on the books.

“The bitterness of studying is preferable to the bitterness of ignorance”

To An Old Friend.

2009-08-01T06:27:00.000-07:00

Dear Azureen,

HAPPY BELATED 15TH BIRTHDAY!

I am currently running out of words.
I just want to say that I love you and I miss you dearly.
I missed the time we laughed together.
We were nuts. We stalked horse.
Ahaha. I remembered you were so vain.
You kept a comb in your pocket and comb your hair every 3/4 minutes.
Lol. You often asked me,"Is my hair tidy?"
I always nod and say yes! :)

Those were the days my friend.
I don't want to chat with you through the phone or MSN.
I don't want to view your pictures in facebook.
I want to see you. I wonder how tall are you now?
I want to meet you. To talk to the Azureen I've known since primary.
I want to touch the real you.
I MISS YOU!

TRYING TO REACH OUT TO YOU TOUCH MY HAND.
REACH OUT AS FAR AS I CAN.

Dudette, you rock and you'll always be my BFF.
Happy birthday. God bless.

P.S. Archuleta is still mine! I won't give in.

Can I?

2009-07-16T03:07:00.000-07:00

Luke Skywalker: I don't believe it!
Yoda: That's why you failed!

Well, I hated it.
I hated it when you go on stage and nag every time.
I dislike it when you talked non-stop about us.
I dislike it even more when you talk about our results.

Your words are giving me pressure.
What Top 40? Why us?
Straight A's huh? Can I?

They say pressure makes diamond. Hmph, is that so?

Last Thursday, it was then that I changed my mind and perception.
They called us for "Kunjungan Kasih". The first thing that came into my mind was, 'What kunjungan kasih? So crappy!' Meet up with the headmistress huh? URGH!

"Kenapa tidak boleh dapat 8A?"

Well, she lectured, lectured and lectured.
Scolded and scolded. Of course, with some encouraging words too.

For once I didn't dislike it. I knew I deserve the scolding.
Thanks a lot, Datin. This is so weird..
Well, your words actually slap me at the cheek and made me realised that well, first class student, top 40, so what? My results suck! I didn't put in enough effort. I thought I did but I didn't.
You asked, "Why can't you get straight A's in the diagnostic exam?"
I just shrug my shoulders. I bow my head and look to the ground. Deep down inside, I knew that I didn't try hard.

"That's just the trouble with me, I give myself very good advice, but I very seldom follow it. "

Alice In Wonderland

You made us write an essay about why can't we score straight A's in diagnostic exam.
One main reason: I didn't believe I can.

Thanks for awakening me. I am still in my dreamland, drifted to somewhere far far way.
I guess I have to come back to reality.
Days to PMR (if not mistaken): 87
And I am only 25% from my starting point.
75% to go... Move it. Move it.
Please slap me once more.

"May the force be with you."
Yoda

Ouch! That hurts!

2009-07-02T05:53:00.000-07:00

You said the words.

Perhaps you don't know what you said or what you did.
Perhaps it's nothing to you.
Perhaps you don't mean it.

But OUCH! It hurts.
It meant a lot to me. You turned my world around.
It's like poking an extremely sharp knife into someone's heart.
The fragile heart just break. Crash!
It hurts. A lot.

Well, what should I do?
I faked a smile so you won't see. I faked a smile so everybody won't see.
Hold back the tears. Put on a smile.
It's okay. Let it be. You'll be over it.
But then again, you just like to stab me in the heart.
There you go again. It's like poking another knife into a wound.
Even if you pull out the knife, the wound is there.
The blood will still bleed.

I felt like screaming. I felt like running away.
Far far away. I can't bear to hear another sentence.
Call me oversensitive or whatever. This is me. I placed every single word in my heart.
Well, I laughed. That's the only way.
Just laugh, even if it isn't funny.
What else can I do?

Sometimes I tried to hide what I feel inside. Nobody knows.
They don't understand. They expect me to be the cherry happy crazy bubbly girl.
I just have to wear that mask and hide those sorrows.
And be happy. I have to smile. Deep down inside, my heart is aching.
What do they know?
They only know that I am forever smiling and joyous. Always cracking jokes.
That's what they know.

The words are deep down inside my heart. It won't vanish cause it's a scar.
I closed the door. Went into my closet.
God, You're my only secret place.
In places no one will find, all those feelings so deep inside..
It was then that I let go. Just scream. Just shout. The teardrops are not restricted.
Because there's only me and Him. Jesus.

JUST LET IT GO!

What a friend we have in Jesus,
All our sins and griefs to bear!
What a privilage to carry
Ev'rything to God in prayer!
Oh, what peace we often forfeit,
Oh what needless pain we bear,
All because we do not carry
Ev'rything to God in prayer!

Have we trials and temptations?
Is there trouble anywhere?
We should never be discouraged,
Take it to the Lord in prayer:
Can we find a friend so faithful
Who will all our sorrows share?
Jesus Knows our every weakness,
Take it to the Lord in prayer.

Are we weak and heavy laden,
Cumbered with a load of care?
Precious Saviour, still our refuge;
Take it to the Lord in prayer:
Do thy friends despise, forsake thee?
Take it to the Lord in prayer;
In His arms He'll take and shield thee;
Thou wilt find a solace there.

God hears everything. He knows. He cares.

But still, it hurts.
It's okay. Let it be..
Bring it unto Him. Lay those sorrows before Him. God will be my refuge.

Procrastination.

2009-06-29T03:08:00.000-07:00

How can you become so nerdy?
Tell me! Tell me!
How can you study and study and study and study the whole day?
Tell me! Tell me!
How can you memorise the whole history book?
Tell me! Tell me!
How can you get straight A's?
Tell me! Tell me!

I want to be like you.
I want to be like you.
I tried to be like you.

I want to transform! I told myself to turn into a new leaf. I told myself.
But still... I just can't.

HELP!

I seriously need motivation!

Lord, help me.
I am helpless.
3 more months to go.
I am still here.
Right at the starting point.
Going nowhere.

I don't want to be a loser.
MOTIVATE ME!

Rain is falling down on the sidewalk.

2009-06-20T00:03:00.000-07:00

Run baby run.
Don't ever look back.
They'll tear us apart.
If you give them a chance.

PS. They can change the locks, don't let them change your mind.

Tagged by Wei Yen.

2009-06-18T06:01:00.000-07:00

*Copy this tag as your own note.

Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions.

If the person before you had the same first initial,you must have at least 10 answers different.
Tag 10 people before ending this tag.

1.Your Real Name: Michelle Han Mei Jing
2.A Nickname: Maddie
3.An Occupation: Marine Biologist
4.An Action: Massage
5.An Adjective: Magnificent
6.A Type of Car: Mercedes Benz
7.A Type of Food: Macaroni Cheese
8.A Colour: Maroon
9.A Country: Madagascar
10.A Place: Market
11.A Movie: Meet The Robbinson
12.An Animal: Monkey
13.A Fruit: Mangosteen
14.A Song: Mamma Mia!
15. A Celeb: Mandy Moore

I would like to tag :
- MeiYee Low
- MinYi Han
- MoonMoon Choy
- Mr Yong
- MunChing Ng

MOkay, you guys don't have to do the tag if you don't want. Just tagging for fun.

Mmmmmmmmmmmm.... muaks.

It Ends Tonight.

2009-06-14T03:04:00.000-07:00

(8) musicgal_heizen (8): michelle
(8) musicgal_heizen (8): tomorrow going back to hell
Michelle: SOS
Michelle: :(
(8) musicgal_heizen (8): haha
(8) musicgal_heizen (8): i really dont want
Michelle: apa nak buat?
Michelle: life's like this
(8) musicgal_heizen (8): haizz
(8) musicgal_heizen (8): i din't even get to enjoy
Michelle: u didnt go anywhere?
(8) musicgal_heizen (8): i ONLY step out of the house to go to TUITION and only that day went to watch movie
(8) musicgal_heizen (8): after that straight away go home
(8) musicgal_heizen (8): you think?
Michelle: what the........
Michelle: wow
(8) musicgal_heizen (8): hah
Michelle: nevermind. you still have me tomorrow
Michelle: we shall die together
(8) musicgal_heizen (8): what's with too many barriers?
(8) musicgal_heizen (8): yes..
(8) musicgal_heizen (8): tomorrow sure get exam paper wan
(8) musicgal_heizen (8): maths.. bloody hell
(8) musicgal_heizen (8): science
(8) musicgal_heizen (8): crapiness
Michelle: ya..... hit me baby one more time
(8) musicgal_heizen (8): bm
(8) musicgal_heizen (8): god
Michelle: TOO MANY BARRIERS!
(8) musicgal_heizen (8): bless
(8) musicgal_heizen (8): our
(8) musicgal_heizen (8): tiny
(8) musicgal_heizen (8): whiny
(8) musicgal_heizen (8): souls
Michelle: eishhhhhhhhh
(8) musicgal_heizen (8): yeesh
Michelle: you are making me nervous dude
Michelle: phobia phobia phobia
Michelle: school school school
(8) musicgal_heizen (8): haha
Michelle: exams exams exams
Michelle: results results results
(8) musicgal_heizen (8): well you aren't the only one
Michelle: faint faint faint
(8) musicgal_heizen (8): and i'm freaking scared
(8) musicgal_heizen (8): i dont think i'll be able to sleep that well
Michelle: we shall RIP together
(8) musicgal_heizen (8): or get up in time
(8) musicgal_heizen (8): ahahah
Michelle: lol
Michelle: i sudah biasa
Michelle: lie in bed for 2 hours
Michelle: before Zzz
(8) musicgal_heizen (8): ahahah
(8) musicgal_heizen (8): i know you
Michelle: see my eye bags
Michelle: they're fat or whatever u call it
Michelle: lol
(8) musicgal_heizen (8): ahahahah
Michelle: what movie did u watched?
Michelle: Hannah Montana?
Michelle: lol. so not. that's not u
Michelle: 17 again?
(8) musicgal_heizen (8): er no
(8) musicgal_heizen (8): hannah montana i might watch..cause got taylor!
(8) musicgal_heizen (8): ahahaha
(8) musicgal_heizen (8): but no thanks
Michelle: lol. I love The Climb :)
(8) musicgal_heizen (8): haha
(8) musicgal_heizen (8): i have that too
Michelle: ...
Michelle: you packed your bags?
(8) musicgal_heizen (8): nop
(8) musicgal_heizen (8): hehe
Michelle: gud coz i havent too
Michelle: lol
(8) musicgal_heizen (8): haha

Tomorrow is the day. Where the labouring starts. The drama shall begin and the honeymoon mood shall end. No more holidays. No more getting up late.

S C H O O L. Here I come.

God be with us. *cross fingers*

The wheels on the bus go round and round.

2009-06-07T04:14:00.000-07:00

Destination #1 - Muzium Negara aka National Museum.
Destination #2 - Bangunan Sultan Abdul Samad aka Sultan Abdul Samad Building.
Destination #3 - SMK Puteri Titiwangsa aka Titiwangsa Girls School.

My cute cute Yuen San! Sweet dreams.
Outside the museum. You are one in a million, Heizen. Among the multitude of people.. you were the only one looking at the camera. Elleh..We're all in this together.Tutu train.
They are listening attentively. LOL :D
Tour Guide #1.
Jalur Gemilang.Standing strong!
Lol. Tengok Jenny. So engross.
Tour Guide #2. She's a french by the way.
Skulls. Cool, aren't they? I like that brown one with its mouth wide open. It's handsome!I WANT THAT NECKLACE. WHAT ON EARTH IS IT DOING IN THE MUSEUM?
Oh gosh.. my favourite picture.
Por Xi Lin, did you tiptoe? (Moo's background.)
This is so old. This is so fake!
Camwhoring in the museum? Lol.
Note: Pn Teoh is in the picture too.
She was like, "Apa you sedang buat ni?"
We were like.. "Nothing cikgu.. just looking around :D."
The power of unity!
Mrs Archuleta wannabe & The Magnificent Mrs Archuleta.
Miss Universe/ Miss Vivien Hew.
Bangunan Sultan Abdul Samad. Standing proud.
We were doing a folio about this building. ZzzZZzz.
The Sultan Abdul Samad Building is located in front of the Dataran Merdeka - literally the Independence Square - and the Royal Selangor Club, by Jalan Tunku Abdul Rahman in Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia. The structure takes its name from Sultan Abdul Samad, the reigning sultan of Selangor at the time when construction began.
What the crap!
Till death do us part.
Being random.
Hang on. We are sun-burning. =.=
Xi Lin :)
Haha. They are looking great except that retarded girl with the blue uniform. The only reason I post this picture is because it's the only picture of me and Yan Ling.
Mr Golden Sun, you are making us HOT!
We are the dudes baby!
Ain't no wind blowing us off..
Yay!! Finally a picture of Jie Yi!
BFFs doing our thing!
Mademoiselle Yuen San the Rajin;
Mademoiselle Michelle the Gila;
Mademoiselle Xi Lin the Perasan.
Vivien; Heizen; Xi Lin; Yuen San; Michelle.
You don't mess with the prefects.
AHHHHHHHhhhhhh......... So chun!
Xin Ying :)
The dudettes! Grabbed from Heizen.
Peace out!
American Idol fan club =P
The self-proclaimed Mrs Allen. Muahahaha!
We're drunk.
What more can I say?
Heizen; Michelle; Yeh Yee; Heng Huei.
YEAH!
Nice cap :)
Do; Re; Mi; Fa.
Grabbed from Heizen.
World of our own.
Heizen :)
Meet my daughter and my grandchild. I am strong, you ain't heavy!
Heng Huei, me and the mirror.

Seriously, I hate my teeth. Those stupid vampire teeth...

Cheers to history.
Cheers to folio.
Cheers to Pn Teoh.

Naku penda

2009-06-05T06:17:00.000-07:00

I chewed a gum for like 3 hours in school just now.

For once I skipped that song from my playlist. Love Story.
I replayed Teardrops On My Guitar. Twice.
pomato= potato + tomato.
I found out that the word having fear of clowns is coulrophobia.
Do I still have the fear?
I guess not. Well, hope not.

Cause He's so real.
So real in my life.
He picked me up and turned my universe around.

God is good. All the time =]

Go ahead and let the light shine through.

2009-06-03T06:11:00.000-07:00

ominous
· adj. giving the worrying impression that something bad is going to happen.
– DERIVATIVES ominously adv. ominousness n.
– ORIGIN C16: from L. ominosus, from omen, omin- ‘omen’.

Just started Marley&Me. (Thank you NJY!)
Am hoping to finish this book by tomorrow. However it seems like it's gonna take me forever to finish it. Well, I do not have reading problem. I am not retarded.
I can easily finish a book by one day. (Elleh.....) This time is different. Last time when I see boisterously, I ignored. I see mongrel, I ignored. Ignored. Ignored. Ignored. I realised that my vocab and grammar is deteriorating. Yesh. Due to the -lah, -mah, -kah, -meh, -leh, etc. used in my daily conversation. Plus the 'hey-you-got-do-the-maths-homework-ah?' type of language (aka broken english) spoken. I woke up and realise that I really gotta, i mean got to brush up my english :(
Hmph, so I will be holding Marley&Me at my right hand and flipping through the pages of that big fat heavy dictionary on me lap impatiently. Well, it isn't fun! Of course not everything is fun... Hello? Once I saw a newcomer, I mean word, I had to find its meaning. Definition. Definition. Definition. I started quite well, I sat there patiently and checked word by word for the like 1 hour. Then I just can't. I cannot tahan! Since I do not have an electronic dictionary, I switched on the computer and used the concise dictionary from my computer. Life is so much easier!
But then again, I gave up after reading for 5 chapters or so. I skipped so many unknown words. I just wanna, I mean wanted to read peacefully. No disturbance of the dictionary! (So Bad) I can merely remember the meaning of the words I just learned. Like, what is loquat again? And what is barbiturates?
Whatever it is, it's better to find the meaning of the words you don't understand. Duh! As if I don't know.. Oh ya, I wish that I had a dog like Marley. Don't mind its insanity and hyperactive-ness, he is a wonderful dog :)

***

So you wanted a sports car huh?
Here you go. Taa-Daa! :)
Yes you can have it. Choose any of them. It's free of charge, I'm paying for it :)
Don't say I am cheating you and treating you as a 3 year old. Only clever and smart people will know that this is not just a picture but a real solid luxurious and elegant sports car. Muahahaha :D
Oh ya, you wanted a driver too huh?
There you are. A nice sports car for you to show off and a cute driver. But what's the point of having a sports car while you ain't driving it? Muahaha.

Yes I am too free. Thank me and you are welcome.
*CRAZY*

When hope is frail it's hard to kill.

2009-05-31T08:01:00.000-07:00

Slumdog Millionaire is fabulousa!

I heart this show a lot!

You won't really know how blessed you are until you see others suffer.

Here is another short film of hunger and poverty of the many unfortunate people of the world. Many of them suffered from malnutrition and hunger.

I AM BLESSED.
I AM GRATEFUL.
THANK YOU GOD.

Ephesians 5:20

always giving thanks to God the Father for everything, in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ.

I'M SORRY.
I COMPLAINT.
FORGIVE ME.

We Signed Our Cards and Letters BFF.

2009-05-22T02:19:00.000-07:00

It's exam week and I know it's kinda inappropriate for me to go online and blog.
Fingers are very itchy now.. I need to type something!

This post is dedicated to a Best Friend.

We were both young when I first saw you..
I close my eyes and the flashback starts...
In kindergarten we met but started our together-ness since standard 2.
You loved me for who I am.
Well, sometimes you lectured me about this and that...
However you taught me many things.
You sign-languaged me in class everyday.
We communicated in class even though we were so far apart.
We broke the rules. Disobeyed teachers.
We were naughty, cheeky and insane yet we still managed to survive teacher's scoldings.
We laughed for more than 20 minutes.... non-stop.
We talked non-stop. Teacher was so angry that she separated us!
We cried together and cheered together.
We danced silly dances together..
Together with Azureen, we sang Breaking Free and Start of Something New the whole day.
We sang Bop To The Top.. I was Ryan and you were Sharpay...
We used to talk about how hot Zac Efron is..
We talked about SGG..
We shared secrets no one else knows.
We had our secret codes when we pass messages.
We ran in the rain together.
We had sleepover in your house and went to MegaKids.
We talked until so late that your mom came in and scolded us.
We once said that we will both stay single till the rest of our lives and live with the dolphins.
We had a world of our own.
We are inseparable. We are CRAZY! The whole class knows it.

But I guess all of them are just memories..

Memories of the past.
Where are you now? Are you in Australia?

Are you living a new life?

This is the way that we are,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, EUNICE CHOO!

NO MATTER WHICH PART OF THE WORLD YOU ARE NOW.. YOU WILL STILL BE MY BFF!

PS. M&E Forever!

Before I sign out, I just wanna congratulate him......

Kris Allen. Winner of American Idol Season8.

Oh ya Heizen.. you wanted those pics, right?
Sorry for the delay. Will post after exams. Am very lazy to upload them.
Typing. Typing. Typing. Post. I just blog :)

Of This and That

2009-04-24T05:35:00.000-07:00

Hello people. I haven't been updating my blog for a long time. One of the reason is because I can't bear to post something to replace that David Archuleta picture in my previous post. (Forgive my English, it sucks.) Haha. Every time I check my blog, the first thing to appear is his face. I just can't let go. Lol.

Heizen was like," Hello Michelle, just put an Archie pic at the top or at the right side of your blog."
Neh~

Anyway, as some of you know, I had fever just a few days ago. Well don't worry, I've recovered. Very fast indeed. You want to know why? Because I am strong I am superwoman. Muahahaha. Crap la. Well, God is looking after me. Anywayy, where was I? Oh.. I realise that there's this fever mania going around. Of course, it's not like you want the fever, you just happened get it from some of your peers and family. And guess what. My brother had fever. Then my mom. Here comes my dad and then me. Muahahaha.. The whole family is affected. We sneezed together talked together coughed together.. Haha sounds disgusting?

As I was typing this post, I chatted with Azureen, my bff (still miss ya dude :P). And guess what. She has fever too... Whooo!!!! I heard that Uncle Peter and Joanna are having fever also. Oh, I've forgotten to mention that XiLin is having slight fever? I suddenly had this wild idea that everybody in the world is having fever now.

I opened my MSN and Yahoo! Messenger and click some of the people who are online. Hehe. I am so mad. I asked them whether they had fever. I know this is totally insane but who cares?

Me : hye x :)
x : oh hi.
Me : just wanna ask, do you have fever?
x : no why?
Me : oh nothing just asking for fun
Me : thx see ya haha
x : lol see ya :)

Crazy rite? Well some of them didn't answer. Haha... either they're too busy or they thought I'm mad. All of them said no. So.. it seems that not everyone is having fever afterall. But if you are having fever, you won't be using the computer in the first place... Smart ain't I? Okay I was kidding.

So.. My main point is simple. Stay healthy everyone! Try not to sleep late like me. Drink lots and lots of water!! That's all..

-Is this a joke? It's so surreal! I'm tired of guessing... I want to know the answer!-

Archuleta!

2009-03-26T02:54:00.000-07:00

Date : 9-11 April 2009

Here comes David Archuleta, the Great Mesmerizer.

Well, I can't go for sure. The main factor is the price of the ticket. Secondly, my dad would not allow. And I'm not free also. Too bad.
Archuleta, don't miss me :(

Oh ya, there's this competition. SMK Puteri Titiwangsa, if you wanna meet Archuleta please act fast! Collect as many points as possible.

SMS SCHOOL [space] YOUR SCHOOL NAME to 32111 to register your school and then log on to www.hitz.fm and collect points by answering questions on David Archuleta.

The school that has the highest points will stand a chance to have David Archuleta pay a surprise visit!

PMR!! Got loads of folios to do.. Eliminating outings to the cinema with friends. Boo-hoo!! There goes my Marley & Me, Bride Wars, Confessions of a Shopaholic, The Tale of Despereaux and The Curious Case of Benjamin Button. Never mind, we will breakfree after PMR. Sabar, sabar.

Look at that dolphin! Ah, I want to hug it!

Way to go Dolphin, you get to meet Archuleta....
No wonder you are beaming :)

When the Blue goes marching in

2009-03-24T06:39:00.000-07:00

Everywhere we go,
people want to know
who we are
so we tell them,
we are the Blue House,
mighty mighty Blue House,
LAKSAMANA!

Come on let me here you say hey hey hey.. now let me hear you say hey hey ho!
What day is it? It's sports day!
Ah! * Screams frenziedly*
Laksamana, please do your best. Maintain your position as a champion. Can you?
Too bad! We came in second :(

It started off with some thunders and lightnings which then turn into rain which then pour and pour and pour heavily which then wet the stadium which then made us running to the top of the stadium so that we won't get wet which then delayed our sports day event which then made us wait until the rain stops which then made us eat the chicken rice prepared by the school while waiting which then kept us waiting until 9 o'clock.

9.10, I think, the rain tamed itself. And the event started. Whoo.. people marched into the stadium. And when the blue goes marching in, we shouted and cheered. Of course, duh! We are the blues, right?

Running. Running competition started after they marched out of the stadium. Go Laksamana!!! This year is a total disaster. I mean the rain and all, they ruin the event! Well, and I don't know what happened to Laksamana. Our spirit just died, faded away. Where are you Laksamana? Where is your determination? We had no voice.

Well, I took part in the "pergerakan irama", the rhythmic movement or formation or whatever you call it. I was like so nervous.. Yeah, I kept praying that I will remember the steps and movements. Oh help, we are losing to Bendahara.

Hmph, to cut the long story short, they announced the results. Well, we got sagu hati for pergerakan irama a.k.a. the last! Tumultuous noises were made. Well, we didn't expect to get the last for this event. I mean, we tried very hard...Our perbarisan a.k.a. marching team won! Hooray.. congrats! Our marching team won 3 years continuously and I hope that we will keep it up and win next year. Well, I skipped a lot of event because I am running out of time now, gotta sleep..

Anyway, the overall results.. *Drum rolls*
Fourth goes to Temenggong.
Third goes to Syahbandar.
And this is where it really break my heart. Laksamana came in second :(
Needless to say, Bendahara won!

Urgh!! Well, there is no one we can blame. I gotta admit that our spirit is very low this year and I don't know why. Anyway I still wanna thank those athletics who tried their very best.
Thank you everyone for putting so much efforts in the sports day event.

Congrats to other teams - Bendahara, Temenggong and Syahbandar for winning various categories like Sorak, Senaman Aerobik, Pergerakan Irama, Larian and so on.

Of course sports day is not about winning. I wish us all the best for next year's sports day. We can do it Laksamana! :)

Here In My Home, Malaysia.

2009-03-19T23:46:00.000-07:00

Well, I saw this video and I kinda like it..

The road is long. We're on stony ground.
But I'm strong. You ain't heavy.
One Love undivided.
That's what it's all about.
Love won't wait. Just keep pushing on.

Hmph, holiday is almost over.....
I still can't understand how my brother played chinese chess with his friend for 3 hours.
Urgh.. they were like two people sitting on the sofa looking at the chess set, moving their hands and fingers occasionally without communicating for 3 hours! Well, I exaggerated. They did talk a bit but it's only A BIT!

Anyway, see ya guys on Monday.
Cheerio :)

Getcha Head In Your Books!

2009-03-18T06:27:00.000-07:00

You dream, oh yes, you dream of getting straight A's in PMR.
Well, dream on girl because you'll never achieve it unless you move!
Come on, let move it move it!! It's Wednesday now and you are heading nowhere. It's holiday!!

Please DON'T WASTE your time, Michelle Han!!

You are so gonna regret if you continue this bad habit.
Do you wanna spent the rest of your holiday doing nothing, sitting on the sofa watching the tube, entertaining yourself with songs and videos in Youtube, going online doing nothing?
OH PLEASE WAKE UP!!! Hello, knock knock.. you are in form 3, not standard 5!
You see people getting good grades and say, " Wah so geng! You are smart lah.." But have you ever wonder why? Have you ever thought that, perhaps, you just got to put in some efforts in order to achieve your goal? Have you ever thought that you can be like them if you just work hard and sacrifice your beloved-tv-time?

People spent their time revising and gaining knowledge while you just sit there talking crap. Yeah, you may enjoy it now but you'll be crying your eyes off when you stare at the piece of paper stating that you scored a few A's for these subjects and a few B's for that subject. Will you be happy then? Hard works pay dude. Please please please study, Michelle!!
Don't don't don't waste your time.
Study and revise everyday, please. Be it 10 minutes or 2 hours, just do it. Learn from your mistake, you wasted 2 years playing and doing nothing. It's now time to change. Don't be a procrastinator.
Cherish this holiday and do something meaningful like gaining some knowledge.
Time is running and the clock is ticking. Please please please do something..
Are you listening? Are you awake? Are you still in your dreamland?
Do you want your future to be like this...
or this?
Take your pick. It's your life, not theirs. It's your choice, not theirs!
Just do your very best now. Whatever it is, don't regret in the future.. there's no way you can turn back!

P.S. Wake Up!!!!

March babies

2009-03-10T02:55:00.000-07:00

Dear,

Yan Ling
Vanessa Wong
Ju Ee
Suke Mune

Wishing you guys a very very very happy birthday.
Happy not only on your birthday but throughout the year.
Happy not by just receiving presents but realizing how blessed you are.
Each of you are special. Be who you are, not others.
Have faith in yourselves and dream big.
God bless.

Yours sincerely,
Michelle :)

Till death do us part.
We are friends forever.

Random

2009-03-08T06:55:00.000-07:00

In front of my computer now.
My family is watching the tournament between Chong Wei and Lin Dan.

Mom : "Lee Chong Wei not bad. Score 5."
Me : "Yay!!! Lee Chong Wei got 5!!"
Joseph : "What yay? Lin Dan got 9!"
Me : "Owh. I didn't know."

Go Chong Wei...

Find myself in me!

2009-02-26T05:27:00.000-08:00

She never thought that she would
Get her second chance
Running so far from all she's ever known
Convinced she's lost all meaning
Where did her dreams go
Still she knew that there was something more

Don't be scared, there's someone there
To say these words you need to hear

[CHORUS]
Don't let anybody tell you who you are
It's okay to let go, you're that shooting star
Remember all you wished for
Believe it will be true
You will never find yourself anywhere else,
find yourself in you

Sometimes people tell you
Be like me to fit in
Do you know your identity is not in them

Don't be scared there's someone there
To say these words you need to hear

[CHORUS]
Why should I measure the world
By someone else's design
Oh I won't let this fly by
Hey look over here I just found the real me
Now it's your turn to see
Now it's your turn to see

[CHORUS]

Smile and the world smiles with you

2009-02-20T06:16:00.000-08:00

Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring, all of which have the potential to turn a life around.
-Leo Buscaglia

God bless!

2009-02-09T00:57:00.000-08:00

Was tagged by Joanna a week ago.

Directions: Once you’ve been tagged, you have to write a post with sixteen random things, habits or goals about you. At the end, choose five people to be tagged, listing their names and why you chose them. Don’t forget to leave a comment (”You’re tagged!”) and to read your blog.You can’t tag the person who tagged you.

Okay, here goes..

1. I have an extremely huge crush on dolphins. Dolphins are totally awesome! Aww.. they're super adorable too. Given a chance, I would like to rear them..

2. I want to be a marine biologist. But first, I must learn how to swim.

3. My current dream is to climb a tree. Yeah this is weird. I saw lots of trees before but I didn't dare to climb because.. everybody's looking. Well, I shall climb one day..

4. I was a fan of Arsenal. My passion slowly fade away after Thierry Henry left the team. =[

5. I am a girl. This is lame. I know. Next...

6. I think tigers are handsome. Especially when they're hunting for preys. They had this very fierce look that looks very cool.

7. I am currently obsess with the song "I Want It All". Don't you see that bigger is better and better is bigger, a little bit is never enough! No no no! I want it all!! Ah, I can't help it.. I kept singing this everyday..

8. I can laugh for 20 minutes. Without a reason. I hardly laugh like this now.. people may think I'm mad. But seriously, we laugh like this when we were 12. Me and my friends, we just kept laughing and laughing and laughing until we're out of breath.

9. I feel taller after the last holiday. Call me perasan or whatever.. I still feel taller!

10. I had eye contact with That cat! This is crazy, I don't know how it started. That cat who always linger around the canteen had eye contact with me. You know, I hate cats and I can't stand them... It's not like the when-you-look-me-in-the-eyes-and-tell-me-that-you-love-me look. We both look like we want to kill each other! This is so creepy.. After 1 minute or so, the cat started to walk towards me! I was so scared that I ran away..

11. I like soya bean and taufufah. =P

12. I dislike egg tart. Everybody seems to like it, I do not know why. Actually I've forgotten how it tastes like. I only know that it tastes horrible when I was in standard 2.

13. I play softball. Yeah yeah, laugh all you want. I don't care! I'm learning... actually, to overcome my fear of balls.

14. I ekam eveileb when I'm bored. Thanks to Bridge To Terabithia, I'm living in a world of my own. Neh, not really.. just kidding.. it wasn't so serious.

15. Like Joanna, I also used to heart Enid Blyton's books. And my favourite was the Fatty series too. Haha. St Clare and Malory Towers rocks too! I still remember the French teacher Mam'zelle always say "abominable.. (something something in French)"

16. I've been reading Ceceila Ahern's books recently (thanks to heizen). I fell in love with If You Could See Me Now. A Place Called Here is great too.

Gonna tag:
-Xi Lin and Yuen San : They're my BFFs.

-Elena Rajan : She is my deskmate.

- Evangeline and Bernice Han : I'm interested to see what will they write in this tag.

-Cheong Heizen : She always tag me.

-Jenny Cheah : She is my Cantonese teacher in school.

Sorry I broke the rule. I've tagged more than 5 people.

Footprints

2009-01-29T06:00:00.000-08:00

One night I dreamed a dream.
I was walking along the beach with my Lord.
Across the dark sky flashed scenes from my life.
For each scene, I noticed two sets of footprints in the sand,
one belonging to me and one to my Lord.
When the last scene of my life shot before me
I looked back at the footprints in the sand
and to my surprise,
I noticed that many times along the path of my life
there was only one set of footprints.
I realized that this was at the lowest
and saddest times of my life.
This always bothered me
and I questioned the Lord about my dilemma.
"Lord, You told me when I decided to follow You,
You would walk and talk with me all the way.
But I'm aware that during the most troublesome
times of my life there is only one set of footprints.
I just don't understand why, when I need You most,
You leave me."
He whispered, "My precious child,
I love you and will never leave you,
never, ever, during your trials and testings.
When you saw only one set of footprints,
It was then that I carried you."

~Margaret Fishback Powers, 1964~

Just fooling around

2009-01-24T04:54:00.000-08:00

We were bored so we took pics.
Keep holding on.I walk the lonely road. =P
Seriously, we had nothing better to do. We were really bored.
Cheers!
Maybe if I eat more of this ice-cream, I'll be as tall as her... Censored.Hmph.. is the cashier looking at us?
For your information, we paid the ice-cream already. We are not stealing.
Mine is the fatter one :)

She is looking at her phone. I am looking at mine.

"Erm Michelle, I think it's this way.."Goodbye.

Happy Chinese New Year to those who are celebrating CNY!
Happy hols to everybody.
(URGH!!! Homeworks - 3 Maju!)

Unbreak My Heart..

2009-01-18T05:07:00.000-08:00

Why? Why? Why? Why? Ah!!!!
I forgotten what happened. Everything seemed to happen so fast.
Why am I so rough and clumsy?
As I open my car door... I was talking by the way... holding a plastic bag containing 3 coconut drinks... (casual!) then.. eikkk~~~~
Shoot! Shoot! Shoot!
The car!! Not my car... the other car!!! Ah! -SCRATCH-
Omigosh omigosh!! Scratch!! What am I suppose to do?
My dad's face changed.. He was like.. "How many times must I tell you?? Be careful when you open the car door!"
"I know." :(
URGH!
We went to the guard and asked who is the owner of that car.
He brought us to the house.
Die liao lah. Die liao lah. I guess I must at least pay RM100-200 or more!
I need to pay.. Ah!!!! I wanna cry out loud!! :(
*sob sob*
Knock knock. "Please God.. please gimme discount.. pay RM 50!"
Knock knock.
Knock knock.
No answer. ?
The owner wasn't at home. Should I smile or :( ?
My dad gave the guard his phone number and ask the guard to pass his contact no. to the owner. For a moment I fell like going to sleep and hope that this is a dream. I hope that this didn't happen. Everything was a dream.. Ok? NOT ok!! I have to pay for it. I cannot run away from this nightmare! Ah!!! I am so broke liao! No money.
I can see myself in one week time.. Withdrawing RM200++ from my bank account. Ah!!! I wanna cry already.
There is only one hope - the owner forgive me and don't charge me. (Which will not happen!)
Just pray loh.. maybe got discount.
I can only blame myself for being so CLUMSY!

Thanks for the memories!

2008-12-31T00:57:00.000-08:00

I just wanna say thank you to all my friends, especially my buddies from 2 Maju!!
I just wanna say that.. without you guys, there's no fun!
Without you guys, I wouldn't understand the meaning of True Friend!
Without you guys, life is a bore!
Thanks for everything!
Thanks for being so kind, understanding and patient!!
Thanks for laughing with me when I laugh even though it's not funny at all!
Thanks for enduring all my crapping!
Thanks for cheering me up!
Thanks for .......... AHH!! *currently speechless*
Thanks for everything lah!
Hmph.. I love everyone of you!!

Best Friends Forever!

"Friendship : A star that connects each and everyone of us that makes us unbreakable. Let it be happy or sad, friends make you feel special, loved and appreciated.."quoted by Cheong Heizen!

No matter what class we are in next year, we will still be friends forever!!!
Love all of you!
Happy New Year! All the best in our PMR!

I'm talking to you!

2008-12-28T04:54:00.000-08:00

I dunno what to post. The title has nothing to do with this. Or.. maybe it does?
The other day, we wanted to go somewhere. My brother straightaway wear his seat belt once he sits in the car. He asked me to wear. Me being me.. didn't bother to buckle up my seat belt.
I know I am very bad. Yes. Very bad.
He was like.. "Wear your seat belt or the police will fine you one day!!!"
I said I'll wear when January starts and we won't get fined. OK?
And then he kept going.. "This is habit! You have to wear now.. so you'll get used to it."
Hmph, I know that you are right, Joseph.. And I know that I am wrong.. but why can't I start wearing on January? Lazy lar. Haha, I think you guys are also scolding me right? How can you not wear seat belt? Blahblahblahblah..
Fly fm was playing the song "That girl is so dangerous"
My brother sang.. and point at me the whole time..
"That girl is so dangerous. That girl is so dangerous.... *points at me* ... because she don't wear seat belt!!!"
*Stares at him*
WHOA!
Okayyyy okayyyyy!! I'll wear! But.. maybe tomorrow, ok?

*****************************************************

Today is David Archuleta's birthday! Wow! I can't believe he is 18!! He don't look like 18! He look more like 14? LOL.. Happy birthday, Archuleta! No, I am not a big fan of him.. I just like him that's all. I am not crazy about him. Am I? =.=
I found him singing a birthday song in YouTube. Aww.. Imagine him singing that to me!!! He sang that to Jon Cruz's mom. So cute!!! Oh ya, I checked and according to a site.. they said he is 5' 7" (1.70 m) tall! Yay! He is taller than me. Lol.
I know it's kinda weird.. me posting him singing a birthday song on his birthday. But watch.. it's so cute! So naive!

HappY 18th BirthDay! Archuleta!!

The Gift

2008-12-25T06:21:00.000-08:00

Today is Christmas!
You may say.. "Yay! Yay! Christmas! Santa Claus! Christmas Trees! Nice cookies! And most of all presents....!!!"
So, that is Christmas?
Hmph, actually I still can't really figure out what has that pine or fir or whatever-you-call tree to do with Christmas. Well, maybe it represent the cross or something.. dunno.
So, my main point is.. the true true true meaning of Christmas is Jesus lo, to me lah. Yes, Christmas.. Christ mah! The birth of Christ. People commercialise Christmas now that they forgotten its true meaning.
This is a story Uncle Peter shared today. There are 2 ladies. They dressed poshly and went to a posh restaurant for dinner or something. A friend of them asked what's the occasion and the lady replied, "Well, today is my son's birthday. He is 2 years old now and we are celebrating. I dropped him at my mom's house because.. you know.. babies! They are noisy..."
Okay. Let's see. A mother celebrating her son's birthday with her friends without inviting her son? That is totally hilarious!!! Wakaka.. Ok, that wasn't that funny.
You see, this story is like us. We celebrate christmas without understanding or realising its true meaning. All we think is presents presents and presents!
I saw this old Christmas card of mine and I think it's really meaningful:

Christmas, one of the busiest times of the year,
can also be one of the emptiest.
In between buying gifts,
decorating the tree,
and doing countless other things,
do you ever stop to wonder "WHY?"

What does Christmas really mean?
You could say that it's about giving,
but more importantly, it's about receiving-
receiving the greatest gift anyone could ever give.
The giver of such gift
could only be God.
He came to earth in the person of His Son,
Jesus,
to teach us how to live and to give us
the gift of eternal life
by dying on the cross as a sacrifice for our sins.
The gift has been there all along...
anyone can have it by simply receiving Him.
And why not?
Because when you think about it,
Christmas,
like life, has no meaning apart from Jesus.

Thinking of You with Love at Christmas!

So, the greatest gift I received this Christmas is from God.
I thank God for sending His Son to earth and died for me. I thank you for everything I have and I shouldn't complaint!!

Wishing all of you a BLESSED CHRISTMAS..
Be thankful and love your love ones :P

2008-12-17T06:33:00.000-08:00

Yo! See that chicken? Haha.. We saw them on our way to tuition.
We as in Heng Huei and I.

Heng Huei : Aww... Look at that dog, so cute!
Me : What dog?
Heng Huei : Neh.. There!!!
Me : Where?
Heng Huei : There!
Me : Dog? I don't see any dog..
*strained my eyes and looked closer*
Me : What la you. That is chicken la! Wakaka! HOHOHO.. HAHAHA!!!
*laughs hysterically*
Heng Huei : =.= *laughs also*
Me : Hey, we still got time right? Let's go and take a picture of those two chicken!

So.. We went to take pics with the chicken. I wanted to stand next to them but they keep running away from me. Haiz.. chicken! Why do you run away from me? All I want is to take a picture with you... :(
Anyway, we managed to take one pic before they ran away.. Wakaka!

Home Alone. With cousins.

2008-12-07T03:56:00.000-08:00

Hye guys.. I didn't blog for a long long long long time if you noticed. Sorry, I was busy and my internet connection is kinda #@%$*zxgdjgcwdyhgfwjg%%$%^&t! Phew.. ah I feel better. Aaah *sighs contentedly*

Anyway, my cousins from Melaka came to my house today. Evangeline and Serene came. Too bad Bernice and Beatrice didn't come. We miss you by the way, Bernice and Beatrice. Joanna came too.. Yahoo.... We are all in this together. It'll be fun if Philip came but he is in Kedah.

Uncle Samuel, Aunty Evelyn, mom and dad went out. So, we children rock the house down. Wakaka, not really. Serene is so cute but she is kinda shy. Evangeline is soooo TALL! Oh my goodness, she is taller than Joanna. Haha. Evangeline used the computer. Serene said to Joseph that she wanna watch Mary Poppins. Joanna and Joseph were playing guitar. Lol. I also watch Mary Poppins. It's kinda childish but it's funny. I watched that show 4 times before. I like that word.. Watcha call that? Supercali... Supercalifra..Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious! Yes. That is a very nice word. Wakaka.
Cute cute Serene!!

We ate our lunch. And then.. we made ice kacang!! Hooray!

I think this is Evangeline's.This is mine.
Joseph eating his.

You might think that I am mad. Walking aroud taking pics of ice kacang. Haha. We had fun making our own ice kacang. Well I took second helping after dinner also.. I guess the consequences of eating too much ice kacang is that you'll get cough! Urgh! I hate coughs. Yes I got cough later. Shouldn't have eat so much.

Me and Jo ;)Evangeline :)
Serene and Joanna :P
My cute lil cousin and me :D
Haha. I don't know why but I like this pic a lot. So cute lah you Jo jie.
Group photo(s)!

Happy Birthday Cousin!!

2008-12-06T06:29:00.000-08:00

This is Joanna.
This cute, adorable, studious, crazy, lovely, likable, friendly, humourous, responsible, joyful, blah and blah and blah girl is my cousin!
Hehe.. I love her a lot!!!!!
Today is her birthday! 6 December.. Hohoho.
Dear cousin, I just wanna wish ya... HAppY biRthdaY!!!
Yo! You are officially 18! So cool~~
Hmph.. Wish ya all the best in everything you do. Keep the faith. Smile always.
Okay, I am suddenly speechless. I'm so glad you were born, because you brighten my life and fill it with joy.
When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place.
May God continue to bless you life and give you the desires of your heart.
Where God guides, He provides.
" Whatever with the past has gone, the best is always yet to come." - Lucy Larcom
(Luke 1:37) For with God nothing shall be impossible.

COUSINS FOREVER!!!
-LOVE YA-

All the Best

2008-10-14T07:34:00.000-07:00

"~It's boring. It's boring. It's really really boring........"
(sing it using the "it's raining. it's pouring" tune)

Okay, it wasn't THAT boring. But still.. boring, in school. Teacher either didn't come or didn't teach much. They don't want us to affect/ disturb/ distract/ divert their attention/ .... blahblahblah.
Their= they
They = the students who are sitting for exams
= form3 + form 4 students

Hmph.. the form 4 classes are just next to us. The form 3 students are sitting for a major exam= PMR. They are just opposite, the next blog! So, my class is in the middle. The center.
Pn Selvi said that we should be happy because the school trust us. They trust that we won't be noisy and we will be quietly sitting there doing our homeworks. Yeah, whatever.
The consequences are :

You shall not talk too loud in class. During lessons or not, don't make loud noise! No noise pollution for them.. (form3 +4)

I know it's kinda late but I wanna wish the form 3 students/ friends/ seniors/ people/ humans

ALL THE BEST in your PMR!!!!

Oh crap..

2008-10-09T02:29:00.000-07:00

This week is very crappy..

Monday
Very rushing in the morn. Simply wore my shoes and go to school. As we were singing the national anthem.. I felt something wrong. I felt that my left leg is kinda shorter than the right one. Weird right? I look down at my shoes. I stared at them for a long time. Hmph.. what's wrong huh?
Stare again.. Oh I see, I wore the wrong shoes to school!!!! Yeah, stupid me. The left shoes is older and it's kinda lower, that's why I feel "unbalanced"!
Dang! The whole day I felt weird when I walk. Good thing nobody realise because my shoes looks the same =P
No lessons today.
I got grade B for co-co. Those who got grade B have to get their cert on Wed so we lined up and they have rehearsal for the Majlis Penghargaan Koko thingy. My friends and I waited in the hall for the whole day. We didn't do anything other than sitting down which is very tiring.
Do you know that it's super tiring just by sitting down doing nothing the whole day?

Tuesday
Erm.. nothing much happen just the fact that I have to wait for co-op to open after school to help Yuen San photostat something. I waited and waited, no one open.
So Yuen San and I begged Jenny to open it. She don't want to actually but go and take the keys in the end. I waited for her to open the door and then she went in to photostat. By the time she reached the machine, she turned to me and said, " Sorry Michelle, the machine sudah rosak."
=.= swt
Then the car came. Sorry and thanks Jenny for taking the trouble to open the co-op.

Wednesday
Today is the Majilis Penghargaan Ko-ko. We students who got grade B sat at the side. They are not announcing our name because time is limited. We are just gonna stand up and bow down which is quite lame but I don't care.
So after the whole thing, they said we are dismissed. So we needn't stand up after all.
I was like.. what? After rehearsing for 1 day and we needn't stand. But I'm kinda happy because it's kinda weird if we stand all together. Anyway, I am crapping.
At night, I wanted to find my past year history text book. I searched the whole house like mad.
Yeah, I've searched every corner.. I've take out all my books.. I've opened my eyes to the widest but still, I can't find it!
I got tired and rest for a while. I sat down and stare at the piles of book in front of me and I saw it!!! I saw my history text book!! After spending more than half an hour searching and spraining my eyes, I saw it just right on the top of the pile!
Why hadn't I seen it earlier? It was just right in front of me the whole time!!!

"So lonely before, I finally found
what I've been looking for................"

Thursday
After school, Yuen San, Lynn, Moon, Jie Yi and I went to the national library.
We reached there and went to the cafeteria. I took mix rice. I simply take the dish because I short of cash. As I reached the counter, the person told me that it costs RM2.50. I stared at my RM2. I looked at Jie Yi and smiled. Hehe, she understood.
When we were eating, papi and the gang came too. She came to our table for a while.
We went to return the book Lynn borrowed and browsed through the bookshelf.
Lynn looked at the window and suddenly said, "Die loh, it's raining already!"
We quickly rush back to school. We walk and run and walk and run in the rain. (It's kinda fun)
The rain got heavier and heavier that we were all soaked with water when we reached school.
Hmph, it's cool but cold. Very wet!

Happy (belated) Birthday(s)

2008-09-29T00:15:00.000-07:00

Dear,

Heizen
Elena
Vivien
Dhuhayati
Ji Cheng
Heng Huei

Just wanna wish you guys a HAPPY (BELATED) BIRTHDAY!!
Sorry.. I know it's kinda late.. especially for Vivien.
Erm.. for Heng Huei... It's one day advance birthday!
You're 14. Continue this journey of life with faith.
I just wanna say thank you to all of you for being such good friends to me especially Heizen, Elena, Dhuha and Vivien..

Ji Cheng - Erm.. All the best in your studies. Hehe. Talk more?
Heng Huei - Thanks for "teman-ing" me during duty and walking to the bus-stop. I must say that that is really a great experience. First time walking to the bus-stop.
Dhuha - May you be happy "usuring". All the best. Smile always. Sorry for teasing you.. you are so cute!!
Elena - Thanks for being such a good "neighbour". Being patient and helping me during lessons. Never complain when I am noisy or "slow".
Vivien - Hope that you and your KKS will be together forever. You are very funny sometimes.. thanks anyway. Remember the name.. Nickelodeon!!

.......I saved the best for the last :P

Heizen - Thanks a lot for everything. Thanks for enduring my insanity and helping me when I faced troubles. Being patient. Lending me books. This and that. Blah and blah. I owe you too much. Sorry for breaking that bottle cap also. Love ya a lot!!

Just wanna say that you guys rock! All the Best in everything.. your studies and blah blah blah.
Keep moving forward. Think positively.
~Live a life of serenity, not a life of regrets....
~Touch the sky and in your reach.. Believe, achieve and aspire!!!

(Best)Friends Forever!!

Happy birthday to those I forgotten to wish..
Selamat Hari Raya to my Muslim friends!
Happy Holidays to all of you..